iRa ReMMuRd

(=ELIMS

2009-09-25T06:50:00.000-07:00

hMM, this few days feel like erm, sometimes no mood darah boiling menyaketkn hati seyhhh........

but still never ever fail to put a fake smile on my face,

so yeah, exam is ard the corner.. but still not ready, maybe this weekend

finish upp my coursework art ,done! concerntrate on other subject..

n yeah i upload some of raye pics n b.r outing, but just upload 5 coz

damn lazy right now, n sorry if the pic is abit blurr.. Got lot of story to update but ,

am damn sick n no mood. kk im oFF !

170909 LiFE !

2009-09-16T05:10:00.000-07:00

Today life,
First period is EM ,notsure doing what coz am daMn sleepy that time[otak blanksleepy mode]
Ouh Mann! i forgot how to do all the formula in evry chapter,GgRRrr ! exam agik 2weeks seyh..
Aarghh! lantak larr, klau da FAIL, FAIL jerr larr nk uat camne kan, hMMM....
Second period is PE , run for 2 round n plus another 2 round because we were walking.
deNn warm upp all that, play frisbee.. challenge all the group, till 9.55 deNn Mr Ralph ask
all the group to rest accept my group n fee group coz kite maen bagos.. think soo,
run here run there sweat like hell, ampai muker MERAH giiiylerr n asthma pon dtg nk breath
pon susa soo, terpakse larr batalkn puase.. go down ask alvin buy water deNn go up deNn was
like tgok satu class seyhh tk puase.. hah! ayoooo.[skip] After school chill2 at chill out corner..
eat drink mcm tk tau malu gituu enh, deNn dorg blayh.. left me n yaya forward>>>
malas larr plakk nak story pnjng2,, chaow uhhh !!

140909 LiFE !

2009-09-14T05:24:00.000-07:00

Today life,
first period we're having CPA, nothing much just review about what chapter will came out on exam n blayh..blayh..blayh. Second period EM, daMn bored.. sepatah haram pon aku tk pham, Mr Mus
ajar laen Ms Kasturi ajar laen Mr Ang ajar laen, camner nak pham nik mcm.. silap2 exam FAIL!! hMM..
recess time we chill2 outside classroom, n continue our lesson when the bell rang. Third period is Music
we watch "Phantom Of the Opera", hMM.. nga khusyuk tgok, yg bdk lelaki spoil larr.. nk tgok pon tk senang.
Last period is CME..nik agik BORED!! malas nk layan cekgu, kite uat hal sendirik design costume tidoo[skip]
After school, chill2 kat chill out corner sambel tunggu agik due finish dorg nyer NA Math. While waiting me
n others uat larr pape yg patot. Nak bbual2 nan kak EeFa tpi Fee suro temankn dier ,hMM.. soo ddk kat situu
maen Alvin nyer psp sampai dorg dtg[skip] sampai jerr uma Fee leklek jap deNn help her angkat barang gy bwk turon deNn Alvin pon sampai, soo..continue play-ing with psp, uat lawak.. ketaweketaweketawe till
6+ deNn chaow. Go lion city..waink ? erm, watever uhh.. temankn yaya buy water deNn help her carry her bag coz damn heavy.. blayhblayhblayh, k done ! wanna watch tv.. chaow!

110909 & 120909 LiFE !

2009-09-12T02:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday Life,
off at 1+ went to yaya crib.. deNn 1.50 wait for fee n fit followed by udeen n hafiz.
off to BP meet fyfy n jayjay,n off to Bugis but we took the wrong bus.. haissss !
instead of 960 we go n take 963 , so.. now we're wasting time in the bus n mrt..
but if sampai cepat pon ,we all notsure wanna go whre n what to do. Sampai Bugis jerr
we walk 1 round deNn off to Arab Street. At Arab Street also do the same thing walk walk walk
deNn sit at one corner **** deNn chill2 inside the mall captured some pics n off to Zam Zam at 6+[skip]
Azan sound ,we all eat but not that much.. Murtabak Ayam finish cepat but Murtabak sardine tak luak langsung, soo udeen ,hafiz, fit, fyfy n me help ta finish upp all deNn chaow go ****outside the mall. Ard 8+ we captured last pic wit her and hug her .. daMn ,gonna mish her like hell coz on monday she need ta go batam n will come back in 2 years time if im not wrong. All cam nak cry but tahan, hMM...
After that off to Bugis again yaya n fit wanna buy shoes deNn off chill2 at yaya void deck till 9+ deNn chaow..

Today Life,
wake upp at 11/12+ do all the business deNn clean upp my room[skip]
After that watch mentari deNn use comp till now, after buke.. talk talk talk
n now dad asking me either want ta follow him go sheng shiong or not..
Mmm, iikot je larr.. dpat jgak beli CHOCOLATE ,yum yum.. iM oFF !

continuee......

2009-09-09T22:54:00.000-07:00

Bruce: Hey! look who's here..a creep,o..i meant two creeps! hi,creeps what are you doing here?
Mike: Bruce, can you do me a favour? get the hell out of my sight!
Bruce: Pat!, Trace! grip the other creep!

[Patrick and Trace grip Mike's arm while Bruce face to face with Rio]

Mike: Aarghh! let off me freakers! [Patrick boxes Mike]
Rio: Hey stop it! what do you want from me?
Bruce: i want to settle few things with you, CREEP! First of all, don't act smart in front of Ms Debra! second, stop having fun with all the girls! lastly, don't come closer to Fiona! is that understood?
Rio: Who are you to control me! By the way, Fiona is Mine!

[without delay, Bruce hit and kick Rio badly]

Bruce: before i beat you up ,enjoy your show...bustard!

[they beat Mike continuesly....can't tolerate their actions, Rio strike Bruce on his stomach and attack Patrick and Trace.]

Rio: Mike! Run! Run! Hurry!

[Bruce got Rio and they started attacking him! while Mike Run off safely to his house]

School reopen, Monday, 2nd July 2004
After school

Fiona: Mike! Mike! have you seen Rio...is he absent today?
Mike: i don't know.......

[Fiona face represent worriness after hearing Mike's answer]

Mike: Fiona, i want to apologise to you....i've should not fall in love with you. That time, i wasn't told about your relationship with Rio, i'm sorry
Fiona: No Mike, its not your fault, i've treated you as a best friend not more than that ok, Mike!
Mike: ya, guess you were right!

[ He went to one corner]
(a background music " Look What You've Done")

Mike: Hello! Aunty ,may i speak with Rio?
Rio's mom: (shouting)Mike! Mike! Come right now! i don't know how to control him already..he keep repeating your name...he's in pain! What happened to him?

[Mike straight away can't forgive himself...from twss he straight away went to yew tee, Rio's house........]
(background music " Untittled")

[last part of the song....Mike met with an accident]

2009-09-09T20:37:00.000-07:00

Synopsis: About a best friends life. Mike and Rio was the best buddies which will forever be. Fiona, Rio's girlfriend was admired by Mike. Unfortunately Mike doesn't know about it.... A misunderstood accure between them.......

Thursday ,29th June 2004

At School in Rio's class

Mike was standing outside Rio's class window

Mike: Psst! Psst! Hey,Rio!
Rio: What ?
Mike: (doing hand sign)after school......Canteen........

Mr Clain: Hey you! what are you doing there! get lost now!

[bells rings,end of school. Rio walking down to the canteen meet Mike]

Rio: Hey Mike, are you mad or something? you cant sneak outside my class like that man! thanks to you i got a nice scolding by Clain.....

Mike: ok,ok ! i'm sorry..look, there's something important that i wanted you to help,

Rio: Help? what kind of help?

Mike: Alright, i want you to give this letter to her

Rio: (shocked)What! Fiona! oh..come on, is that whom you'd admire... Hey buddy, there's thousands and thousands girls out there!

Mike: But my heart was pounding for her! Rio, come on! you're my best pals i ever had! Pleasee...

Rio: ok then, i'll try! but i won't promise! i'll try

Mike: Thanks Bro! i owe you one.....

[Although Fiona is Rio's girlfriend, he sacrifice for the happiness of Mike]

Rio: Fiona, can i talk to you for a minute?

Fiona: (happy to see Rio) Rio...why didn't you called me yesterday? i waited for you...

Rio: Mm..Fiona can we discuss this later? lets go there.....

[they both when to a lonely bench]

Fiona: Rio...what happened?

Rio: (sigh) i know this would hurt you very much..but i have no choice!

Fiona: ok, i'm gonna accept what ever news that you're going to tell me now!

Rio: (giving Mike's letter to her)

Fiona: Rio, is this true..you meant you just wanna let this happen!

Rio: I have to....he's my best friend, he's not just a best friend, he's like my own brother! you have to understand Fiona

Fiona: (crying) so you want our relationship just to end like that! you're so cruel Rio! you are!

[background song entittled "Welcome To My Life" will be played]

Friday, 30th June 2004

at the school's pavillion

[Rio and Fiona meets to resolve their problems]

Rio: Fiona, i don't meant to hurt you, neither do i to hurt Mike's feelings (sigh) ok,ok! i'll try to find a way to explain to Mike....Cheer up!

Fiona: Promise?

Rio: (raise his three fingers) promise...and i will not make you cry again! by the way, your face looks cute when you cried yesterday!

Fiona: (smiling and laughing) Rio....
Rio: Hey! is your cheer leading practice starting now?

Fiona: O.. No! i'd better get going, call me tonight! i'll be waiting for you.....

Saturday, 31st June 2004

outside Rio's house

[Mike rings the bells, the door opened]

Mike: Hello! Good afternoon aunty!

Rio's mom: Hey Mike! long time i never see you? how aru you? come in...

Mike: fine aunty, by the way is Rio in?

Rio's mom: o...Rio, Rio is out! he went with......Aaa! Fiona!

Mike: (Mike face turn curious) Aunty ,can i go to his room for awhile?

Rio's mom: sure...

[Mike went into Rio's room. He places the disc on his table but unfortunately he found his letter lying down on Rio's table. Mike knew, there was something wrong]

Sunday ,1st July 2004

went jogging near the school at the canal

Rio: From just now...not even a single word came out from your mouth,why? is there something bothering you?

Mike: (keeping quite)

Rio: i'm asking you bro, is that freak disturb you again

Mike: (nodding his head)

Rio: By the way, i want to discuss something urgent to you right now but look at you..you're not in the mood.

Mike: There's no need for you to discuss, i know everything!

Rio: i'm sorry Mike! i feel guilty not to tell you about it!

[suddenly Bruce,Patrick and Trace came]

To be continue............................

090909 & 100909 LiFE !

2009-09-09T20:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday n today life nothing much..
watch movie ,use comp ,sleep....... hMM,

BbOOoooOORRrRiiIiiNnnGGGgggg!!!!!!!!!!!!
will update more later, chaow !

070909 & 080909 LiFE !

2009-09-08T06:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday life need ta wake upp at ard 8+, need ta follow mom go bugis n geylang..
reach home abt 3+ deNn off again went ta meet yaya at her void deck ,after that
we go upstairs help yaya make" kuih sarang semut" [skip] After buat kuih we watch tv
till buke. Azan sound aper agik buke uhh.. Mm.. first we eat mee bandung second we eat pizza YumYum, deliciosoooooooooo ! deNn ard 7/8+ we chaow go meet kak iFa at her void deck,need ta give logo deNn kacau2 her.. nyahaXx! keciaNn dier kenek buLLy..
off at ard 9+ deNn take 975 straight home.. [skip] reach home ,do all the business
deNn watch tv blayh..blayh..blayh deNn talktalktalk till 4+, at 5.30am Black-Out !!!!!

continue..
wake at 11+, tetibe got asthma.. ingat nak rest but hMM,, lazy larr plakk. So decided
ta siap2 deNn off ta yaya crib help her buat "kuih makmur" hMM, end at ard 4/5+ play guitar watch tv till buke. Today buke we eat nasi goreng, Mm.. boleyh tahan sodaaaap! After buke watch Mat Motor,n off at 8.. [skip] DaMn, see-ing my bro chest ngiluu seyh
hMM, k larr chaow !

060909 LiFE !

2009-09-06T07:19:00.000-07:00

Today life,sleep ard 5+ n wake upp at 12.55pm,watch tv till 4+ deNn siap2
after asar deNn off to nyayi house. Sampai je help my makcik n pakcik to serve
the food fruit n soo ever.. hMM, get bullied by my pakcik, tkper2 ingat irritate
org jerr tawu but its okay.. klakar jgak. After serve the food ,go layan evrybody
n play with the two cute baby, ish! GERAM tgok dorg.. both damn cute. Ard 6+
all gather at the living room, talk talk talk.. abt dana..watever dunno, deNn
sumer kecoh, biler mau game ? talk3 azan pon bunyik soo aper agik buke larr..
Yum Yum,, eat prawn chicken n soo ever.. Mmmm ! sodaaaaaaaaap oi.. sampai menjilat jari, hah ! After buke layan my adeq sdare n soo ever, deNn ard 8+ chaow..
k done ! am damn lazy nak write pnjng2..

030909 LiFE !

2009-09-03T05:56:00.000-07:00

Today life was erm, okay2 larr..
after morning assembly need ta see om,talk talk talk
deNn go for eng, art, d&t n ss lesson.. end at 1.30
Form teacher came n ask us ta give a comment about the noise n soo ever..
Rest for awhile deNn ard 2 went ta class again for lifeskill pro..
firstly biler masok class i was like ,nmpk cekgu tue thought tat the
progr... could be damn boring but eventually not, gerek agik ader.
tu cekgu bbual nan muker2,haha.. kekek sakk. But yg paleng gerek is when
he told us about erm, our life enh.. like what talent that we have n all that uhh.
Was like,sumer muke da question mark3.. cam maner dier leyh bace sumer bende psal kite, aper yg dier bilang sume betol seyh,haissss.. end at 4.48 deNn chaow balek
The End of today LiFE,,

30&310809 LiFE !

2009-08-31T05:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, ard 1+ went off to meet yaya,fee n fit under yaya void deck, deNn chaow to lot1 watch movie " Where Got Ghost". i thought this movie is damn bored but nehh, nope.. daMn funny n shocked me lot of time, hahahaha.. kekek sakk, [skip] after movie chaow to fee house , help her cook for buke.. but only yaya n fit cook,me i just help take the ingredient n so ever.. [skip] after buke we chat2, deNn ard 8+ we went home,[skip]

Today life, we celeb TCD. Hmm, quite enjoy-ing uhh.. i like the dance part, they dance like serious damn nice, WwoWw ! amazing. After celeb we chill in school for awhile then chaow to fee house,watch movie "destination3" hah! cite da lame but still gerek,daMn violent siaa. [skip] after that chill2 chat2.. blayh blayh deNn ard 5+ we went home k [skip] n now again no mood ,AaRrGgHH ! korg nyer probz aku yg stress..

Dirimu...

2009-08-27T05:12:00.000-07:00

Hadirya dirimu memberikan suatu yang baru

Kau begitu mampu menenangkan risau dalam hatiku

Kau begitu mampu mejadi penyejuk jiwaku

Lembutnya sikapmu meluluhkan kerasnya hati ini

Lembutnya tutur katamu selalu membuaiku

Ketulusan cintamu membuatku semakin tak berdaya

Membayangkan parasmu hati ini menjadi tenang

Berada disampingmu jiwa ini teras damai

Rasa gundah yang melanda berlahan pergi

Rasa sakit yang menghujam berlahan sirna

Itu Karena dirimu……..

Dirimu selalu mengisi hatiku yang kosong

Dirimu selalu mewarnai hidupku yang sepi

Rasa perih yang dulu menyiksa kini berlahan hilang

Rasa percaya diriku kini telah kembali

Dan kini rasa bahagia yang kurasakan saat mengenalmu

260809 LiFE !

2009-08-26T05:37:00.000-07:00

today life was erm,, okay2 larr.. nothing much.
go art club, continue with tie&dye end at ard 3,
deNn go SJAB room help kak iFa & kak shapi deco
for TCD, blayh..blayhh [skip] k done !
am daMn lazy,tired n no mood ta talk much.. chaow !

250809 LiFE !

2009-08-25T03:32:00.000-07:00

Today LiFe was erm, okay larr got back science and english paper back..
hMM=( got grade B for science C for math n english, other notsure. First period
is CPA, we did the MicrosoftWord n MicrosoftExcel, daMn forget how to do the
m.e, so cam biase do asl bleyh kentot je.. Next is Science ,get scolded for
many times because we've been rude to the other teacher.. EeRRr ! we all hate
that teacher.[skip] Math lesson we do a re-test,daMn i forget all the formula,
sheesh ! conferm FAIL.. cam biase uat asl bleyh kentot,really fed up nan tu paper
cam nk koyak2 kan je. [skip] assembly, 1st damn bored talk talk talk,followed by
member parliment n deNn teck y idol, hah ! kekek sakk.. kekek plus boring !
pompan cine tuu nyanyi cam ,EeRRr.. cam mane leyh masok teck y idol nik.
lagu tk cepat tk lambat ,dier nyanyi cepat cam org nga fast forward gytuu,
haiyoooo. after assembly get back ta class leklek outside classroom deNn join
the boys watching Jangan Pandang Blakang Congkak. Cekgu dtg je sume da cam panic,
zaifi tahan pintu,erik nan fariq cepat2 cabot plug. DeNn continue our english
lesson by doing test paper to help us pass coz 11 ppl fail for english ,haisss..
3.30 end ,straight away go home, like ish! siang nyer.. k uhh chaow !

Kenapa Cinta...

2009-08-25T03:27:00.000-07:00

Kenapa Cinta. .
Ia bisa buat bahagia yang tak terkira. .
Namun bisa datangkan derita tiada tara. .
Kenapa begitu kuatnya rasa ini melekat di jiwa. .
Tak bisa diketahui kapan datangnya. .
Selalu datang di saat yang tak terduga. .
Kenapa. . ?
Secarik puisi ini takkan mampu menjelaskannya. .
Karena jawabnya ada di setiap hati manusia. .

MeMoRy

2009-08-25T02:59:00.000-07:00

I can taste the dust wipe out my tears

When memory choirs upon the graves

Like the old times we share everything

Dancing the crazy wolf and singing the owl

Upon misery we run happiness

On a plate of rotten bronze

To swallow the fruit of emptiness

Everything is hollow since wind blown you away

My passion and desire committed suicide

Hanging on the ceiling of my broken heart

Kecewa Akan Cinta

2009-08-23T05:27:00.000-07:00

Terkadang Masa lalu menjadi sebuah kenangan

Terkadang sebuah kenangan menjadi penantian

Entahlah..entahlah…

Dalam hatiku berkecamuk rasa tak menentiu

Dicintai salah…mencintaipun juga salah

Terkadang ingin bebas lepas terhempas

Dimana tidak ada penderitaan

Bebas berlari tertawa dan bernyanyi sesuka hati

Tapi duniaku penuh dengan penyesalan…

Tetesan air mata dan misteri akan kekejaman

Tempat dimana bertemu dengan orang tercinta

Dia meninggalkanku dengan dendam yang terpendam

Ada rahasia dibalik kehidupannya yang tak pernah kutahu

Perlahan diriku menyadari akan sebuah kemunafikan

Oh,,Tuhann sungguh kecewa diriku…
Kecewa…kecewa… akan cinta…

Luka Hati ku ini....

2009-08-22T07:34:00.000-07:00

Pagi itu perasaan ku sudah tak menyenangkan. Perubahan sikap nya yang tiba-tiba berbeda, dari kemaren sudah terlihat.. Dia memang masih memperhatikan ku, tapi dalam matanya terlihat bahwa dia sedang menutupi suatu kesalahan.

Dari awal mungkin memang salahku yang tak pernah mau terbuka, bercerita tentang semuanya. Dan sepertinya ia merasakan hingga melakukan hal yang sama, tak pernah mau terbuka. Sakit rasa nya bila mengetahui orang yang kita sayangi akan berpaling dari kita. Sebegitu buruk kah diriku, sebegitu hinakah diriku, sebegitu membosankan kah diriku..

Aku memang bukan tipe perempuan yang mudah mengungkapkan perasaannya, aku lebih menyukai bahwa ia tau bahwa aku sayang sama dia. Tapi ternyata Ia sama sekali tak mengetahui, malahan mungkin ia tak perduli dengan perasaanku..

Sikap nya yang dulu manis, berpindah ke orang lain. Cara memandang orang lain itu sama dengan cara nya memandang ku dulu. Aku mencoba pura pura tidak mengetahui, hingga aku yakin bahwa hatinya sudah berpaling pada orang lain itu.. Mungkin sekarang aku harus mengalah untuk keadaan seperti ini, Ia bukan orang yang tepat untukku.. Semoga luka hati ku ini perlahan akan tertutup dan nantinya akan ku ikhlaskan...

Aku Lemah

2009-08-22T07:30:00.000-07:00

tubuh diam terlentang dalam kesepian hati jiwa ini teriak lantang...
kenapa aku harus lemah disaat aku merindukan kasih sayang...
kelemahan menuntun kedalam suatu yang tak pernah aku harapkan...
kelemahan membawa setitik air mata disaat kucoba meraih suatu kebahagiaan cinta...
dia menusukan sesuatu kedalam dada hingga kutak berdaya...
hingga kucoba pejamkan kedua mata dan kudengar allah berbisik sebuah kata...
sabar...
jantung berdetak, hatipun teriak kucoba merangkak disaat dada terasa sesak...
dia pergi...
membalikkan pandangannya dari hadapanku tanpa sebuah senyum yang aku rindu.....
huhhh,,
AKU LEMAH disaat dengan kasih sayang dan aku harus kehilangan...

Ya ALLAH berikanlah aku kesabaran menghadapinya,
dan berikanlah kebahagiaan untuk dirinya.amin

Aku tak pernah...

2009-08-22T07:29:00.000-07:00

aku tak pernah tahu, bahkan
aku tak pernah ingin tahu
bagaimana caranya untuk melupakan kamu

aku tak pernah bisa, bahkan
aku tak pernah ingin bisa
untuk menolak kehadiran kamu

aku tak pernah melepaskan, bahkan
aku tak pernah ingin melepaskan
orang yang selalu aku sayangi, itu kamu

aku tak pernah lelah, bahkan
aku tak pernah ingin merasa lelah
untuk selalu menjaga hati kamu

aku tak pernah mengeluh, bahkan
aku tak pernah ingin mengeluh
rasa sakit dihati saat kehilangan kamu

dan
aku tak pernah berhenti, bahkan
aku tak pernah ingin berhenti
untuk selalu mencintai kamu

Sampai disini...

2009-08-22T07:08:00.000-07:00

Aku tak pernah niat untuk mengusir segala memori itu
Di mana aku bisa terbahak-bahak di bahunya
Indah yang kini menyakitkan
Karena aku yang terlalu sulit bicara

Akhir yang tak indah bukan pengharapan
Dorongan amarah itu sungguh pintar kelabuhi hatiku
Itulah kelemahan otakku yang tak menahannya
Kelopak mataku pun bekerja membendung air mata

Aku sanggup kehilangan dia
Demi ia yang mengejar cinta
Ingatan akan waktuku sama sekali hilang
Kau genggam semua kini

"Kakak tidak akan pernah lupakan adik"
"Terima kasih, tapi bukan kata yang kumau"
"Kakak akan menjaga adik selamanya"
"Maaf bukan aku yang harus dijaga,tapi dirimu sendiri"
"Kakak akan jadi sandaran adik ketika adik menangis"
"Iya,tapi tidak saat aku menangis karenamu"

Mungkin memang benar,harus sampai di sini
Terima kasih atas suara merdumu ketika aku tuli
Terima kasih telah buka mataku ketika aku buta
Terima kasih telah bangkitkan aku saat aku ingin mati
Maaf ku sia-siakan waktuku denganmu
Sampai di sini,Kak....

220809 LiFE !

2009-08-22T06:45:00.000-07:00

CaMaT BePuAsE PpL..
today is the 1 day of ramadhan, stay at home
doing house chores n more. hMM, actually
notsuRe wat ta update, so enjoy reading the
puisi aites=)..

Elemen dalam duniaku

2009-08-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hadirmu bagai angin
Yang datang tuk segarkan hari-hariku
Namun datang tuk sekejap saja.
Hadirmu bagai air
Datang tuk melegakanku
Lalu kau mengalir kembali & meninggalkan aku.
Hadirmu bagai tanah
Yang menyuburkan ladang keceriaan di hatiku Kemudian banjir datang & membawanya pergi.
Dan hadirmu bagai api
Yang mencairkan hatiku yang tlah membeku Kemudian hujan datang tuk padamkanmu
Ku adalah bumi,
dengan kau sebagai elemen yg mengisi duniaku…

Bukan Tentang Cinta

2009-08-22T06:36:00.000-07:00

Suara suara binatang malam
Menambah khusyu kubaca kalam
Mencari arti hidup
Saat nur Ilahi kian meredup

Hidupku mencari mati
atau bergelimang harta dalam peti
Nista
Dan binasa

Terbang di atas derita dalam jiwa
Lalu melayang mengawang kecewa
Bersujud
tanpa wujud

Ya Rabbi,
Ya Rabbi,
Jengah di tengah aku yang lengah
Dendam dipadam kau yang menggenggam

Kuharap nur
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Berilah hamba kesempatan;
Tunjukilah jalan kebaikan;

Kisah Jiwa Terbelah

2009-08-22T06:30:00.000-07:00

Cerita tentang matahari tujuh warna
yang muncul dalam pita-pita
Kisah ini berawal dari hati yang sepi
karena jiwanya terbelah setengah, sementara
setengah yang lain terlempar entah kemana

Jarak menjadi tirai
namun waktu membuka jalan untuk ditempuh
Bagian yang satu mencari sebagian dirinya yang lain
di antara ruh yang setengah hidup
dan setengah mati
Mencari serupa dari alur dan jalur
yang dipahatkan pada keduanya
Sama sama merah oleh gairah
Sama-sama biru oleh rindu

Cerita tentang jiwa yang terbelah
Bagian satu terpisah dengan bagian yang lain
Hanya satu petunjuk yang ditinggalkan surga
Sebuah tanda rasa yang menggetar
saat belahan yang satu
berada di radius belahan yang lain
bukan hanya dalam jarak,
namun juga kata

Ketika bertemu akhirnya,
maka matahari menjadi tujuh warna
dalam pita-pita

terindah darimu kasih...

2009-08-22T06:27:00.000-07:00

seribu hal terindah darimu kasih, membuatku mampu bertahan dengan sikapmu..
terus kukatakan berulang kal untukmu, hanya engkau yang kumiliki…

tidakkah cukup dengan semua penderitaanku oleh sikapmu?
Inilah Dunia kita, biarkan mereka berkata, kita tak pernah perduli..
hanya engkau milikku, takkan perna ada yang lain..

seandainya takdir menginginkan kesengsaraanku, berikanlah
aku takkan meninggalkanmu….

senyummu bagai udara tanpa sosok, begitu tenang dan membuatku bertahan hidup..
tanpamu sedetikpun jiwaku tak tentram…

saat malam tiba, kubiarkan jiwaku terbang hanya untuk mencium keningmu dan berkata “selamat malam kasih”

di mimpi mimpikupun ada dirimu yanbg terus menari? tiada henti untukku..
engkau bagai bidadari awan, membuatku bagai seorang pria yang sangat? bahagia..
beruntung kutemukan dirimu yang teramat tulus menyayangiku..

tak perlu kau ragu untukku…
aku teramat mencintaimu….

080809 LiFE !

2009-08-09T03:48:00.000-07:00

yesterday outing was damn great, we're making new friend..
firstly i meet siti n suz at teckwhye deNn meet yaya n feeqah at cck
after that meet fyfy rosma syafiqah n syahirah at bpp. After meet-ing
evryone we make our move to Far East,evryone was damn hungry
so decided to go penin,but notsure wat to eat.. reach penin KFC da kat depan
mate soo aper agik [skip]. After eating, we chill at the staircase outside the KFC
do all the business then chaow go toilet [skip] deNn we make our move to
esplanade but we chill at padang for a while and snap some pics, deNn we continue
walk-ing [skip]. Next place we gone to Marina Square Ngee Ann City n Home..
want to update more but am damn lazy to write more,till here chaow !

070809 LiFE !

2009-08-07T07:31:00.000-07:00

firstly in school we see the parade deNn chaow go to the hall talk talk talk, ard 8.30 we warm up at the hockey pitch deNn get ready for the CROSS COUNTRY blayh..blayhh.
DaMn tiRed eu kNow ! padahal padahal,done wit evrything deNn chaow gy hall again to gift the price to the top 20 and soo ever,, school end at ard 10+ deNn chaow to lot1 walk walk walk deNn go to feeqah house ,sleep-ing talk-ing tv-ing n lots. gettin boring so feeqah decided to sit downstairs[ skip ] ard 4+ we make our move, at traffic light we separate, nysah wit yaya n me wit fiieqah. [skip] ngantok larr plakk ! chaow uhh.. will update more soon,,

sHiNe oN- jEt

2009-08-02T03:09:00.000-07:00

Verse 1
Please don’t cry
You know I’m leaving here tonight
Before I go I want you to know that there will always be a light

And if the moon had to runaway
And all the stars didn’t wanna play
Don’t waste the sun on a rainy day
The wind will soon blow it all away

Verse 2
So many times I’d tried
To be much more than who I am
And if I let you down I will follow you ‘round until you understand

That if the moon had to runaway
And all the stars didn’t wanna play
Don’t waste the sun on a rainy day
The wind will soon blow it all away

Chorus
When the days all seem the same
Don’t feet the cold or wind or rain
Everything will be okay
We will meet again one day
I will shine on, for everyone

Verse 3
So please don’t cry
Although I leave you here this night
Where ever I may go how far I don’t know
But I will always be your light

That if the moon had to runaway
And all the stars didn’t wanna play
Don’t waste the sun on a rainy day
The wind will soon blow it all away

Chorus
When the days all seem the same
Don’t feet the cold or wind or rain
Everything will be okay
We will meet again one day
I will shine on, for everyone
shine on, for everyone aah aah

When the stars all look the same
Don’t feet the cold or wind or rain
Everything will be okay
We will meet again one day
I will shine on, for everyone
shine on, for everyone

010809 LiFE !

2009-08-01T01:16:00.000-07:00

have been so long never update blog,haiSssss..

am damn busy, sick, stresss n having some probz for the few days.
i just need some tyme ta be alone, hMM.
well, today wanna accompany yaya but i just dunt have the mood ta go out or do any activity.
hMM,yeaa n now i dunno wat to update..
i think i better chaow ! will update more when free.

130709 LiFE !

2009-07-13T06:50:00.000-07:00

hMM, todae life was like okae.. BORING !

Firstly, wanna say math wit ms kasturi was great am not sleepy at all

if wit mr mus, [*yawn] jngn harap aku leyh concerntrate. So, well after school

chill at chill out corner wit Fee FiT Diy yAyA denn kak shapi join us. DeNn when

FiT n Diy go N/A math me n fee fight for awhile lari2 cam kanakz2. DeNn we use

FiT laptop deNn kechique join us.. blayh.. blayh

Go upstairs for awhile, see-ing them decorate the class deNn chaow go downstairs

again sit2 doing nothing talk talk talk deNn three gone left 3 we chat2 deNn kak iFa

join us, blayh..blayh making jokes all tat. Then tetibe sumer senyap, awhile later nysah

go home chnge to jersey. DeNn me trying to take my pen knife back from kak iFa but..
i got a cut on my finger but its kae. [skip] Boring, notsuRe wat to do.. so playing soccer

wit ELMO n CAREBEAR cam kanakz2 deNn yaya join in, blayh.. blayh..
ard 6+ send kak iFa n yaya at the bus stop deNn chaow go home, kae enough
daMn sleepy ryte now, chaow uhh !

110709 LiFE !

2009-07-11T04:52:00.000-07:00

Kae today we go CDAN again, play bowling as usual.. But today play like

EeRRr, lemau smcm je. Only got 1 strike like okae. N this tyme naseb baek

bola bowling tuu tk terjatuh agik, klau terjatuh pai seyh abes coz mak oteh

[also at thre]+yaya mum. HaiSss, after the game we go westmall deNn chaow

go lot1 library read-ing+captured some pics, deNn after tat we all go home uhh

aper agik.. malas layh plakk nk update pnjng2, kae uhh chaow !

040709 LiFE !

2009-07-04T23:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday LiFE was sOo great n we had alot of fun..

sOo firstly, mEet yAyA at 217 deNn cycle for awhile ,after tat go upstairs
meet her mum n help her pack all the pinggan mangkok deNn ard 3 chaow
go carik his bro deNn go lot for awhile finding for wrapper deNn terserempak
nan Nysah.. deNn go Bukit Gombak waiting for the other two at mac
peyh lembab, 2 hour ddk kat situ cam bdak bodoh. Ard 6+ chaow sit near by
the waffle shop, mEet them already deNn straight away go cdan. Reach thre
mE n yAyA go n book the lane while FiT n FeeQaH buy some snacks.
First game was great, second game was likee eErr kuwang hasyam nyer dorg
when my turn tetibe tige2 diRi nyanyi bola2 api, tat part shoot masok longkang
second tyme dorg nyanyi lagu tuu bola terjatuh kuwang hasyam kaaan pai seyh
siol, hahaXx.. but second time FiT play like erm, bnyk masok longkang seyh.
yAyA plak 4 kali strike, like okae jngn kembang auw. DeNn they say me jealous,
whre got. After the game, at bus stop while waiting for the bus to arrived, we
making jokes, hahaXx.. kekek sakk. hMM, got nothing else to say, kae uhh chaow !

280609 LiFE !

2009-06-28T04:43:00.000-07:00

The newborn babyss was so cute and adorable.. just now watched them cukor ambot.cute ! NaiLa is soo very the tembam-ness.. [aku rase kak iFa pon kalah=)] Sarah is too small n cute. Keay firstly,reach thre relax2 deNn after tat help the makcik2 at dapur. DeNn layan my adeq sdare makcik pakcik all tat.[mcm gerek gytuu enh kacau makcik pakcik,hahaXx]deNn sit at 1 room Fadhil play guitar while otherz singing, hMM.. dah lame seyhh family tk gethering cam nik agik. mish them soo much. hMM, keay layh waNna watch tv, chaow !

200609 LiFE !

2009-06-20T23:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday firstly, ard 8am go jurong east meet otherz deNn go mc donald for breakfast deNn chaow go Snow City. Use the boot jacket all tat, fiiuuuh ! boot diek bawuu busoook sakk.. deNn chaow go in, tke pics all tat deNn do all the business. After tat go jurong point wait for MakLang, while waiting we sit at the corner mcm bdak bodoh play psp listen to music tke pics all tat, deNn when MakLang came we straight away go jemputan ard jurong point thre. DeNn eat all tat,makcik2 want to see the pengantin sooo need to wait, hmm.. damn bored siaa. When the pengantin came like it was finally, sleepy already..yeaa ! ape agik balek uhh.. keAy uhh got nothing else to say, before tat got some pics of yesterday:

180609 LiFE !

2009-06-19T01:35:00.000-07:00

Keay yesterday firstly meet YaYa under FiT void deck deNn sit at table tennis wait 4 FiT. 2 hours later FiT join us,put all the math text book all tat on the table deNn we play card, tat tyme FeeQaH call,telling us tat shez going to join us soon.. suddenly, i saw Mak Oteh[fit mum] walking towards us, quickly i tell them n end the call with FeeQaH. Haha, kekek sakk.. abeh sume panic.Quickly keep the card n chnge to study mode, konon blajaa layh tuu. Mak Oteh go already deNn all like wat thee.. hahaXx. Pandai nyer kite acting. Tgok tepi tembok tetibe nmpk Nysah nga ketawee, hahaXx uhh yelarhh. Darik maner jer tuu kechique dtg, tk prasan layh plakk.

[skip] ard 5+ we cycle ard Teck Whye deNn rest buy water all tat deNn continue cycling. DeNn play basketball. Lastly, we duNno wat to do, we go disturb people like wat the.. hahaXx. Jodoh2 kn org nik sumer. Ard 6+ sumer chaow balek, but me nver go home, go smewhre. Ard 7+ deNn go home ,tyme nk balek tetibeEe keay tat part dunt have to say, im fine now, naseb baek tkde pape.. keay uhh chaow !

160609 LiFE !

2009-06-16T06:09:00.000-07:00

hMM, today at abt 1+ chaow go cdan, cuzin ajak play badminton.
deNn playplayplay, kenek layan my adeq sdare. HaiSss, tuu due asek
gadoo jeyy nk maen nan akuu, apEe yg best kat diri aku nik..
after tat, yaya call ajak lpakk wit dem deNn from thre straight away go
bwh blok Fit, lpaklpaklpak bored then layan adeq Feeqah n adeq sdare yaya
blayhh3 deNn ard 7+ chaow balek, tat tyme dah mabok,
naseb baek tk pengsan kat tgah2 jln ,haissss.
hMM, keay uhh nga peneng uhh chaow !

150609 LiFE !

2009-06-15T03:38:00.000-07:00

~NaiLa~

keay maybe this might be a short post,
in the morning go Bukit Gombak have our breakfast deNn walk ard thre tiLL afternoon
deNn go Jurong East mEet my aunt, deNn go Teck y visit my aunty n my new born cuzin Sarah
but we coming at the wrong tyme coz at tat tyme my aunty nEed to go hospital,but itz keay
we still can see my other cuzin tat is NaiLa. daMn soo cute, n very the tembam seyhh.
but asek tidooo jeyy, haiSss. keay2 cant talk much gtg, before tat heres some pics of yesterday:

140609 LiFE !

2009-06-13T21:12:00.000-07:00

daMn bored, whole day at home doing nothing, just watch tv guitar-ing eat-ing..
hMM,bdw cant wait for 2morrow go aunty house watch my new born cuzin, itz a gerl,

cant wait to see the cute face, hMM.. hungry layhh plakk chaow uhh.

soRRy !

2009-06-11T02:03:00.000-07:00

sowiie, the last tyme me updated to harsh or what..
i just cant control my temper ,coz me really2 stress that tyme
thinking abt my friends waNna do bad things ,abt sisz , family all that
hmmphh ! but gReat me delete already the post, biler bace balek
uat menyaketkn hatii jeyy. weLL yesterday,
shleep ard 4+ watch prison break, project runway n
csi: miami tiLL 3 deNn tetibe diff to breath as in
bile nk breath saket, deNn when okeay ready
listen to music deNn tetibe blackout, hah !

hMMphh ?!

2009-06-09T02:27:00.000-07:00

hMM ,amcm uhh.. okeay akk sketching akuu ?

iRa: this girl use to be my godsisz, her name is
sHaRiFaH, evendo now we're not adeq bradeq angkat agik
but me stiLL lurve her n just treat her like my own sisz=)
maybe treat her as my own sisz more better deNn a godsisz.. hMM

shopping shopping shopping !

2009-06-06T23:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, ard 3.oo chaow meet feeqah at lot deNn gerak go senja meet jay jay
deNn watch kude kepang, Eerr, soo bored. ard 5.oo deNn gerak meet my sisz after
that we go penin buy shirt deNn go bugis buy skirt shoe n accessories.
Yeah ! all the things that i nEed all thre soo, apee agik go home layhh kn ,hMM..
asl enh hari nik akuu update cam sket jeyy, argh ! uat bodoh uhh. chaow !

Malay Cultural Camp !

2009-06-04T07:51:00.000-07:00

[*yawn] am so sleepy but yet cant sleep, so maybe this might be a quick post, 8.30 till 10.30 got class deNn after tat join the malay cultural camp, hMM quite fun,we did do all the activity except the batik. but the pantun section is soo damn bored ,hah ! the whole lesson sme of us were sleeping, great me too. after tat go hall ,do all the business. deNn ape agik chaow uhh, gy pondok jmpe fit n dee. wait for nysah but hMM, she wit kak shapi n kak iFa soo apee agik gerak uhh, haiSss. actually yaya nk spent the whole day of today wit nysah but tgok diek nga happy nan kak iFa n shapi, tros tk jdik.hMM, esok yaya nk gy erm,melacca enh,err.. pape layh ouh maNn ! 4 hari dokk, lame nyee. rinduuuu ouw. abee mlm sape nk layan aku. tkkn arfa kn, haiss. keay layh mai eyez waNna blackout sOon chaow !

FuCkiNg LiFe !

2009-05-31T00:57:00.000-07:00

hMM, wtf am i doing ,EeRRrr ! whyy all this happen to me AaRrGgHhh ! i just want to get oFF with this fucking life, i cant take it anymore StressStressStressStressStressStressStressStressStressStreSssSsssssssss ! alwaeys thinking of smething, why cant just it stop for the moment of tyme ,im sick n tired of this. smetyme i alwaez talking rubbish n doing all the wrong things. why ? why ? why ? i feEl like im going crazy. feel like my life is now full wit rubbish. n now i feel like waNna just go n die.

Heyy guys WeLcOme tO my FuCkiNg LiFe ! hah !

290509 LiFE !

2009-05-30T01:55:00.000-07:00

weLL yesterday iN school firstly need to stay at 1h do nothing ,hMM so bored but after that they got, CPA we follow them to the computer lab ,we have the chance to use it so,waste the tyme using it till 10am ,den go recess ,after that we go back to our class dancing listen to music singing all that den LaLa-DaNceR entertain us wit singing n dancing like wat hahaa ,hMM quite fun.. will be missing those days wit them. After all that we arrange all the table n chair as wat

mr ___ ask us to do, after that ms lin came n ask me yaya lala n zul to help her take all the report book n put all their result in it.. soo after we done it, ms lin give back our report book n say that we have improved alot except me she sad that i drop alot ,hMM baek2 5 jdik 16 haiSss..

den she say am i having any problem or wat ,coz in class i alwaez nver concerntrate, actually i have a problem but nehh i just want to keep it to myself.. so i just say no to her,haiss..
i nEed to put more effort this tymee ,please just forget abt the problem for the moment of tymee..one of my problem is abt godsisz,smeone not happy shez having another one ,n just bcoz of godsisz my bestfriend became my enemy n i dont expect this but tat gerl is wat they call

"kpale batu" haiSs.. daa uat mcm2 pon masi ssh nk maafkn akuu, mcm layhh diek tk penaa uat salah. Watever layhh, malas nk bbual psal diek.. ouh yeah,yesterday after school fyfy ajak go lpak deNn i just follow fyfy n only talk wit fyfy for 2 hours deNn aruu talk nan yg laen except tat gerl ,abee sedap atii tekak diek jeyy ckap akuu nik cam anjeng fyfy ekot jeyy manee diek gy, ehk sukee atii aku layhh nak jdik anjeng kee apee kee ,tk menyusahkn diek kn.. EeeRRrrr !
if she dont like me ,thre is nothing i can do News Flash, Bitch i dont live to pleasee her !=@

280509 LiFE !

2009-05-28T07:08:00.001-07:00

heyy peeps, weLL 2i aNd 2h today go 2day1night camp at east coast, feEl sad coz we're not wit them having fun together ,hMM.. but doN feel so sad coz we're also having fun in school, soo in the morning at abt 8am go 1h classroom deNn go to our classroom tke our chair deNn go up again, deNn mr alvin tay ask us to go F&N hub to see a moviee, soo we go straight away to the hub n watch mr bean,hMm quite bored, 30 min watching n another 30 min we sleeping.. after tat go recess deNn sit at 1h classroom till 11.30 ,EeRrrr ! their class soo irrit , soo we dcided to sit at our own classroom n do our own things n yeah we did tke some pics soo just see below this post,[continue the story] soo the guys saw vp walking ard check all the clases n all of us was panic coz we go to our own classroom without any of the tcher permission. we quickly run straight away go to the girls toilet n all go in at the same tyme n tat makes my bag stuck at the toilet door handle or watever they call, hahaaa,n apee agik aku pon terikot uhh bag akuu ,wakakaka..haiSs mcm2 layhh ,ard 12+ we go lab 3 join 1h class again, mr yusman give the permission to use our hp n playing the comp soo apee agik.. kitee pkai comp layhh kn ,hahaa quite fun.. after school meet kak shapi n kak ezra deN go mc waiting for kak iFa ,kak shapi fwen n nysah, after tat lpak at 118 but me nver follow them me lpak alone at 123 ,abt 4+ gytuuu me go home coz not feeling tat weLL feel like vomit-ing n ..blayhh3.. hMM ,keay layh nyte really gtg ,ByEee !

170509 LiFe !

2009-05-17T05:34:00.000-07:00

HaPPy B'DaE to my dearest iRRitating sisz ,EeRrr !
smetyme hates her but oNly smetymes ,hMM ..weLL
this year swEet 17 but yet bdae girL whole day stay at home hahaXx i thought aLL swEet 17 nEed to go smewhre tat can be a memorable. hMM ,hahaXx go smewhre tat hve nice view but bdae girl go canal jog wit sibz ,nyahaXx but quite fun ryte sisz ..weLL ,this year is ur N'level gd Luck do ur best n hope euu success in studies n achieve in evrytng=)

HaPPy BeLated B'DaE to my dearest cuzin, HaZiQ.

hope euu success in studies n achieve in evrythng=)

weLL ,sowiie threz nothing i can give euu except this wish.

notsuRe layhh plakk nk bagik apee ,hMM soo yeah=)

weLL, morning wake upp at abt 9+ wash upp all tat

deNn chaow go bangkit wit mum n sisz buy food all tat deNn go home ,hve our breakfast deNn me use comp tiLL 6.30 deNn chaow go canal wit sibz jog till yew tee deNn come back n do stretching all tat deNn go home layh kn penat sakk daa layh tetibee asthma dtg ,hMM.. keay layh nEed to wash upp all tat deNn chaow go dreamland ,hah ! dreamland karpee..

yesterday n today LiFe !

2009-05-16T04:56:00.000-07:00

weLL yesterday, accompanied fyfy feeqah fit go jurong swimming
complex. Firstly we're not that suRe waNna accompanied them or not ,but

haiSs ,since dOrg nk sgt kitee pegy hMM.. okeay deNn. MeEt them at ard 11

under yaya void deck deNn chaow go fyfy house. Sampai jeyy mntk mknn

tk tawuuu maLu enh kitee, hahaXx ! deNn chaow go jurong.

abt 2+ miie n yaya gerak go penin, she bought a bag n miie bought nothing

just bought a hoody 4 yaya b'dae present deNn chaow go teCk y mc meet

nysah, lpak smewhre deNn anta yaya balek deNn miie apee agik

balek uhh kn ,sumee daa balek , keay uhh.

Today LiFe plakk ,nothing much just waste aLL time by chatting

blogging watch tv eating chat wit sibz mmphh, maybe tatz all.

hMMphh! bored nyee. keay layhh damn sleepy waNna sleep chaow.

160509

2009-05-15T21:32:00.000-07:00

You're not worth the tears,

you're not worth the heartache.

I don't know why I give you the time. You're not worth the pain,

you're not worth the emptiness.

I don't know why I wish you were mine.

I'm sorry for crying over you,

because I said I wouldn't.

But I didn't promise you that,

because I knew it would be a promise

I would never be able to keep.

Nothing hurts more than realising *** meant everything to miie, but miie meant nothing to ***.

Never Say" I love you

"if you don't really care,

never talk about feeling

if they aren't really there.

Never hold my hand

if you're going to break my heart.

Never say you're to,

if you never plan to start.

Never look into my eyes

if all you do is lie.

Never say hello,

if you really mean goodbye.

If you really mean forever,

then say you will try.

Never say forever '

cause forever makes me cry.

Giving up on Love isn't Moving On

Its Giving up Your Happiness

The saddest love is to love someone,

to know that they still want you,

but the circumstances don't let you have them

Love...

Why does it hurt?

Why does it ache?

Maybe because we love too much

and too deep that somtimes

we forget to keep a little for ourselves...

sad but true.

I miss you most when I'm sad.

I miss you when I'm lonely.

But most of all,

I miss you when I'm happy.

I feel as if I could die tonight,

knowing that you are not here.

If a tear fell from my eyes each time I thought of you,

I would have a puddle of fallen wishes.

130509 LiFe !

2009-05-13T00:23:00.000-07:00

bdw before i start anything wanna say HaPPy BeLaTeD
B'DaE to my dearest friEnd ,hahaa hope euu can achieved
in everythng n takmo sad2 tau.. if got any probz miie will always thre 4 euu ,listen to evry of ur probz=)..

yesaaaa ! exam daa over ,hmm weLL today is the last exam tat is music do for 30 minutes n tats it, hahaaaa great exam tyme can talk, copy n singing.. teacher buat bodoh jeyy ,hahaaa if evry subject like tat kn bagooooos ,hMM ..
keay layh gtg ,ByE ! tKeCrE=)

FRiENDSHiP

2009-05-09T01:45:00.001-07:00

i've been patience enough, sincere & faithful enough for my FRiENDSHiP !
bcoz of being too give in & patience towards u ppl attitude,
i've ruined myself soo deeply ! this happen bcoz i've been keeping
my emotions too much to myself ! i don wish this to happen,
i don ask this to happen & i don want this to happen !
u don noe how hurt i am all dis while ! my studies,myself are affected
bcoz of the 'HURTS' that u ppl threw to me..
i don asked anything from u ppl, i just want everything to be like last time
i miss all those memories !
i miss our FRiENDSHiP !
its all my fault ,everyone make mistake
u ppl also make mistake but whhyy its soo hard for u ppl to forgive me
is my mistake is to big tiLL u cant forgive me..
or maybe u ppl don need me anymore,
yeah ! akuu sedar siapee aku,akukn kwn yg tk gune kwn yg slalu buat kwn nyee menanges
slalu menyusahkn hidop korg kwn yg. . ..hMM
bcoz of me our FRiENDSHiP just gone like that...
hMM, me ReaLLy2 sowiiee towards all the mistake that i've done
hope u ppL be bff & hope u ppl last long=)..